Midsummer Came Along This Winter

It was about time I get back on the wagon and accumulate some words. At the end, you can only accumulate your thoughts and feelings. Nothing more..

I reckon writing gives me a change to pause for a second to cherish what I've been given. 

I am barely hopeful, maybe as hopeful as Salinger could have been. And it is OK. 

I just saw myself laughing, not a nervous or sarcastic laugh but a genuine one. It was like all Christmas presents wrapped in one, big, fat laugh. It was a brief moment but I was genuinely laughing out loud. I appreciate that blink of a bliss.

I chose to enjoy that moment very consciously. I am in fact very proud of myself. Now, I am digesting the facts in the morning light. And  what doesn't kill us, makes our drinks stronger. I bet Salinger would agree.

It is what it is. You think you play a hand of poker when living your life but you only take the cards from the table and turn them around. It is what you actually do. Nothing less, nothing more. 

So, this hand had an ace in the deck for me. I felt lucky and I am grateful. I don't suddenly expect to e as lucky as this round on the next. But I sure do hope that one day, preferably  when we're both blind drunk we can talk about it. 

Stand Still Until The Next Round

"everything is different, the second time around." - so they say but I reckon not.

Contemplate all you want. Consider a strategic approach and then a blunt, honest one. Retreat all together. Think of all the roads, think of their crossings.. Its a zero sum game, it always is a zero sum game. You've already lost. 

Taking steps is easy, standing still is hard. 

Once you try to take a step forward and hit a wall, there is no coming back from this. So, you really need to calculate the risk. Are you willing to come back to the fur shop and accept mortifying defeat or would you like to gracefully shut up about it? Let's be honest, if you have to force it, its probably shit. No clever move of yours can compare to an authentic moment. 

Don't waste overtime on an already failed initiative. It's a shameful waste of your labor. Accept the failure then take another good look from outside. This time, you should be able see whats broken. Either find another use for it or chuck it out the window.  

Alternatively, you can adjust your perspective on things. When life gives you lemons, you can sit around wondering why or you can accept the fact that you just need to idle around until the next round. Its like in a card game, you're dealt with a shitty hand and you know for a fact that you can't win this one. Are you going to be a soar loser or play the hand as well as you can to minimise your loss? So, shut up about it and make lemonade. 

Press For Champagne Moment

Oh.my.goodness.

It's a fabulous thing  to press a button and a bellman materializes before you with a silver tray of crisp, cold, fizzy champagne. We need more instant pleasures in life; more of one-hour vacations, treats. 

Fundamentals. You've gotta get them right.

We'd best compartmentalise  our lives into moments. In the spirit of the moment, we sometimes let go too easily and sometimes hold on rather too tightly. While making the choices and paying the price one should always bare in mind that the moment will not last forever. Have utmost caution when handling moments; their meanings tend be exaggerated. Compartmentalise your moments, and yet again, you'll see your perspective changing. 

When you appreciate the moments you are blessed with, life gets more liveable. Sure, you must have a truck load of I-can't-bare-this-cruelty moments up your sleeve but don't magnify them. Shit happens for you to look for a reason to understand the gravity of life. The concept of this so-called journey is that its made out of your choices and some random stuff. Study how you make them and take lessons for future reference. Your changing perspective on moments and their meanings (/never-ending revelations) will give you a hard time on determining the lessons. All you need to do is to take a look at your actions and their consequences. You'll know better next time. 

Now, make the choice to press the button for some ice-cold champagne. Have your moment of self-indulgence. Enjoy your guilty little pleasure of a moment and sip your champagne (can be taken both literal and metaphorical). 

Try again. Fail better.