After leaving a few words for the Red Lord to contemplate, Heroina walks off to the red planet. Little did she know, emerging from her ashes meant diving into solitude.
Not so suddenly but all-so-discretely she drifted away from the King of Sorrows and made the final choice to part ways. It was utterly unexpected and equally painful for Polaris to watch. God only knows how Heroina felt, living through the consequences of her choices. Waiving the possibility of a tomorrow with the King, she had chosen the reality of today's loneliness.
The seven stages of grief were pretty hard to climb for Heroina as she up and left for Mars. The only resemblance of her life on Mars had was the suffocating heat of the vast, empty land. Heroina still felt the cold in her bones.
Mindful, maybe more fearful, of her possibility of manipulating the Red Lord's actions, she stayed in this far far away land for so so long which felt like forever. Shouldering the responsibility of her actions, she faced the music on her own. More often than not, she imagined what the Red Lord was thinking, feeling... She wondered whether he remembered those ever-so-brief moments they have shared as fondly as she did.
Being the ultimate queen of drama and master of artful deception, Heroina kept a "healthy" distance from the Red Lord. He didn't care to take a step further either. Polaris could swear that something has just died but she couldn't prove it.
Heroina, dwelling in her solitude, convinced herself that the Red Lord and her timing was off from the beginning. "Maybe in another life" she uttered, past or future. But not in this one.
Towards the end of the decade, she made her annual pilgrimage to Earth to celebrate her somewhat bitter life with Polaris. Polaris has been saddened by the unfolding of the events of this decade and definitely wasn't ready for the intensity of the walk down the memory lane. Yet, time wasn't slowing down.
***
Polaris gave one of her famous speeches to Heroina during the holy week of her birth. She had written a will for Heroina to read, much like the one Heroina had left for the Red Lord prior to her departure at the beginning of the decade. It read "Accept your choices. Accept their consequences. Accept the circumstances. And move on".
Heroina, being Heroina, has taken these words to her heart but had a different spin on the interpretation. She broke her long-lasting solitude and silence, walked up to the Red Lord's den, and howled. It didn't take long for the two to tango, like never before.
Their timing was once again off. Naturally, Heroina didn't mind. Her balance was off for too long so she simply didn't care. But, the Red Lord had put himself in an impossible situation because he had acted without thinking of the consequences of his actions on Autumn.
Autumn was a loyal beta, fitting perfectly with the lord's alpha traits. Their relationship felt like the dance of bees around flowers, mutually beneficial and fun. How could he so easily let all of these feelings go to waste with just one holler from Heroina? Confused and conflicted with the weight of the answers to his many questions, he uttered "Welcome back".
***
Having swapped roles in the same story, Heroina took a page from the Red Lord's book and chose to end these stolen moments ever-so-abruptly. Unsurprised by the ultimate alpha's move, he licked his wounds in his den.
Every waking hour, made the Red Lord better understand what Heroina must have gone through at the beginning of the decade. He very slowly and painfully drifted away from Autumn over the course of a year but it was the final parting gift he gave her that broke the back of the camel.
Polaris felt the responsibility and taken over the role of the judge, jury, and the executioner trying to urge all sides to err on the side of caution. Needless to say, her efforts were futile.
Would you have chosen to control yourself at the expense of creating a giant 'what-if' in your mind or would you rather let go at the expense of burning with regret?