Fear - False Evidence Appearing Real

To fear is one thing. To let fear grab you by the tail and swing you around is basically the summary of my life. Hence, the explanation of my erratic / desperate behaviour.

Fear terrorises you, numbs you and sucks the life out of you.

It's just a cruel joke that our belief systems are formed as a reflection of the society. We experience life and pay the price in absolute solitude. Yet, our perception of reality is shaped by the surrounding souls around us. We get blinded by our expectations which are put in our minds as a result of the encounters with these souls. We bomb into reality and the whole world comes crashing down with disappointment. But that one is a solo ride. 

You will not be lonely if you like the person you are alone with. So, you'd better start getting to know and love yourself. Don't be afraid to take a decision and make a mistake. Take responsibility when you fuck up and face consequences knowing that you've ended up here as a result of your own choices. Defeat is not the worst failure. Not having tried is way worse. Not learning anything out of a failure is the worst. Forgive yourself if and only if you learn something from your failures. Embrace life's shortcomings and move on. Don't get stuck on setbacks and stop thinking how tired you're. Keep moving on. Life can't catch you unless you stop and wait and ponder. Basically, don't give a shit to life's drama.  

Fear of disappointment and fear of failure will overshadow all your decisions. Don't let that monster eat you alive. Anything that can go wrong will probably go wrong no matter how much you fear from it. Your worst nightmares may come true. So what? You are the one who is going to orchestrate the show. Set the pace yourself. Stop caring so much. Don't give a shit.